Day seven, winding down

This day we had the opportunity to spend time at a street vendor, browse a souvenire store, travel the long road to the beach where we were staying, and play some by the ocean.

So for all the hype about sleeping at the beach, it was not bad at all. We had a lot of fun playing all afternoon as a group. The ocean was good fun, and had some huge waves. We all had the opportunity to just let loose with nothing to care for but ourselves.

Now for all of the playing we did and work we did all week, I thought I would be sleeping hard the last night. But at 2:00 am I found myself laying awake, and I headed for the beach. What an awesome time I had just writing, praying and processing. It turns out there were a few of us there, but I did not see anyone else until the sun started coming up.

During my time I took the opportunity to write down many of the things I was feeling. The most life changing of those being a prayer that I prayed over and over that night. I prayed that I would be as excited about my relationship with my wife and with God as I was excited about anything alse in the world. I want to have energy toward those to parts of my life overflowing. I want there to be boundless energy toward those two relationships in my life. That is the toughest thing that I could imagine maintaining, but I want it!

The other thing that I realized about the trip is how easy it is to be the person that I want to be when I am surrounded by the right people. It is so important for me to have people that I can count on to lift me up and keep me in line, as opposed to dragging me down and distracting me from what I need to be doing.

Now, I am writing this several weeks after returning, and have seen lots of resistance to living out both of those goals. I have been truly overwhelmed with simply catching up on life, I am just completing posting my trip on my site, and have not sent a single thank you letter for the support I received. But I am renewing those requests in writing this, and I welcome everyone who reads this to check on my progress. I only caution you that I also realize that the only way to be successful at something so big is to admit where I am struggling, so if you ask, well, you asked for it, and you'll get the truth about where I am at.